Alrighty, today is the day where I start writing about my journey to becoming (or being) an artist! And more specifically, about creating my first solo kinetic art installation.
As I’m writing this, I feel a mix of fear, excitement, and even frustration for having procrastinated on it for all these months. Sometimes, it’s okay to take breaks, and I believe they are even key in my creative process, but this pause is starting to feel long… I’m at a point where it’s hard to find a good excuse to keep postponing it. The only argument left in my mind to stop me is: I’m scared! What if I fail? What if others find me lame? And to her I say: ahhh my dear, remember what’s written on your vision board? “Do it from love, not for love”. For your own joy, your own sense of purpose and accomplishment. Do it for you. ❤️ Because another part of my mind says: what if I never do it? Then, I know I’ll regret it on my deathbed.
“But you’re not even a good writer!” That’s another story I’ve always told myself (the first one being I’ll only become an artist at 50 years old, once retired), and that’s exactly why I chose to write about my process with this art installation. To not only be an artist, but also a good (or at least better) writer.
With this double imposter syndrome hitting me, it feels like attempting to dive for the first time from a 10m cliff instead of the side of a pool. But, as they always say, feeling fear means you’re stepping out of your comfort zone and growing, so here I am. 🦋
I hope reading my thoughts and feelings over the weeks will inspire something in you, or at least show you that if I can do it, you can too!
One little step at a time… 😊 Chloé
Little bonus: I’ll also share some of my watercolor progress. Even though it’ll probably not be part of my first solo installation, you’ll realize, as I share more, that watercolor fits “the theme”.
